.::Wednesday, September 17, 2003 My Dearest Conscience,
how kind of you to actually remind me to wake up...but I just cant help it but stone all the way...I dont know but I think its kind of difficult for me to get out of this calamity...
Well maybe excuses wont help but at least let me explain the development so far...well I am feeling that demon coming out of me again...its always durin this trying times that this demon arouses in my being...it will devour anything that comes in its path...that's why I am stoning around because I dont want that demon to control me like before...although that demon is the one that drives me into a trance that makes me pursue glory...I know what it can do to me, especially to my loved ones...so please understand...
I still believe and trust in hope but I dare not move because I am afraid to unleash the demon from its slumber in which the last time it wrecked me to bits...and I dont want to be wrecked...so my dearest conscience pleaasee...understand...I know by this I have aroused the guilt inside of you...that this is not the way I should carry on...its another day till the exams and I am still stoning and as a matter of fact not only will I be affected by whats to come you will to and I believe it will be worse than what that demon can do...I guess I will have to regain my strength to control this demon within me and hope in the same time I don't be overwhelmed by him...so Hope and my Will be with me as I summon again the bain that once nearly ruined me and my life...
Well I guess its time to rise and shine...for the gargoyle is released from the rock that shackles him...For this time with a renewed spirit and zeal...I will ride the tiger again...for I know I havent fulfilled myself...so its time to wake up and smell the roses for everyday is a new day...and yes...thanks my dear conscience for reviving this flame that has once burned me out...and now I am in control...
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