.::Friday, October 31, 2003
finally after a whole mornin of remedy...i think the blogs workin...
.::Tuesday, October 28, 2003
...stressed out...pulling hair out...
...feel suddenly shattered...i think...u noe a part of me feels that i need to move on the other part wants to sit and sulk...sigh...i dunnoe but after the pracs today...i just cant do anythin...aaargh....sometimes i now wonder whether i can do well for the o's now...wats up with me...i'm not suppose to be like this but yet again..humans like all humans...they fail...and i m one step there if i continue like this...sigh again...okok...i'll try to put it behind me...but i cant...i try again but still there is this sensation...nvm...well be seein u guyz...feel so screwed up...
cant sleep again...aargh....when its like less than 9 hrs to pracs...darn...feel so bad...am i screwed up???...darn....well enough of bloggin for now...neeed sleep...ok...gonna lay down after this...i hope...haiz....
.::Sunday, October 26, 2003
its kinda hilarious that everyone thinks the o's is the end...hahaha...it is...i mean look at the nicks of the ppl...well ya we r reachin the end of a new beginnin...hahaha...that is so darn funny...sorry guyz if i insulted ya...but anywayz....i have to start my engines...lost 4 days of study to be wif me family...now its back to the bks...hahaha...anyway c ya guyz when i see ya guyz...
In case i don't see ya...gd mornin...gd afternoon...gd evenin...gd nite...sigh...been goin out for the past four days...really its very tirin...and exhaustive...well i need to get back on track now....not sayin the tragedy got me off...but all i really wanna say is dat when u fall...u will bounce up even higher...and when you have friends whom you hve faith in...u will know that there are ppl who care...well been spendin my time wif my fam...kinda gettin things back to normal...well i m not worried abt anythin...just keepin my trust for i hv been doin my part...anyway i just miss me frens...but i noe i will miss someone even more...well gtg now...need to sleep...been havin sleepless nites...and horrible days...sigh...but i hv images in my mind that can never come out...well till nxt i guess...anyway lin, nab, narz and ppl who kinda noe me...i just wanna tell ya guys that u guyz r grt 5 stars 4 d encouragement and comfort...well i dunnoe wat else to say...
.::Friday, October 24, 2003
i feel kinda comforted knowin that there are people there in times of crisis...i felt so down knowin abt the loss i have faced...but being around the ppl u noe and love just encourages and strengthens me coz although the loss was hard to accept but i gettin along pretty fine knowing that i am not the one who dictates who goes where...and i guess this crisis was a blessing in disguise...coz my family is more close knit than before...and i guess my prayers were answered because now i feel joyful and not sad for i feel now although the loss is great there is no need to grieve coz i will see her again...and i noe she is resting peacefully in the arms of the Lord...so peeps dun worry abt me for i am okay...
.::Thursday, October 23, 2003
Though my soul still is troubled
It comforts me to know
That you have gone to a better place
A place of peace for eternity
Though my tears still flow
Joy seems to come out too
For I know I will see you again
Because I know deep down I will
Though I will miss you much
Memories alone will be enough
To forever be that presence
Which will remind me of you
Lola I love you and I will not let you down...
But whatever it is...
God is in control...
she's gone, her journey ended but yet i must be strong...but now i feel more encouraged knowing she has returned to her eternal home...and she will forever be in peace....
.::Wednesday, October 22, 2003
i couldn't help but share this all to you...coz its been in my mind the whole time since i knew abt it...though tears now though they don't flow...i noe they are still building up...i never thought i would experience losing someone real close to me...but i guess it's ll in God's hands...for what he gives he takes away and it is not for me to dictate him for his is the perfect plan...anywayz i just couldn't study today...was pre-occupied with more important matters...matters concerning the heart...well i just pray that whatever it is...it is for lola's good...because he knows all our needs...
.::Monday, October 20, 2003
been doin tys for thewhole day...went frm math to physics to chem now is me break b4 i go to do doublle maths...shucks....can feel the pressure...its very tough...anyway took some quiz to rest me mind...try them...
Everyone remembers the 'faked-orgasm-in-a-deli'
sequence from your kind of movie When Harry Met
Sally. It seems that you're falling for a buddy
or have already fallen for them. Uh-oh. You're
probably caught between the possibility of
having a great relationship and wrecking the
one you have now. You know what they say, it's
better to regret something you did than
something you didn't do.
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Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a
good communicator. Incredibably loving and
loyal when your trust is gained and you are
fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is
in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river
but nobody truly knows you.
What's your element
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."
What type of eyes do you have?
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You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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.::Sunday, October 19, 2003
Protector
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hey there...been just hangin by a moment here...dunnoe y today i aint been smilin...sighs...anyway just jammed wif my bros...kinda fun but shitty aniwae...shucks...i just feel like crap now...gonna be doin nite studyin...okok...gtg now...
You are Clark!
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.::Saturday, October 18, 2003
The story of a dollar coin
hahaha...its just a weird day today...just weird...i dunnoe why...even when i am wif that person its weird...hahhaha...just weird weird weird...i m not sayin there is anythin wrong...its just weird...hahhaa..anyway today was i kinda cool...went to ajc...but b4 that me speech was ok...i was like shakin and scared...dunnoe y...cant speak in public i guess...can only act...sigh..hahaha..weird knowin that i come frm the dramam club...hehehe..anyway gtg study now...
Raffles Institution
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this is stupid...kinda weird test niway just take it for the fun of it...so wat is it tryin to say...hmmm i wonder wat...
.::Friday, October 17, 2003
today's kinda a long day...only got back like now...and yes i was frm sh coz i had to go to ICA or used to be SIR...anyway got me PR approve and i am officially a S'pore PR...gonna get me IC nxt week...hehehe....cool huh...anyway me fam is back and I never felt such fun bein wif them in a long long time...well anyway on hind sight guess i am dreading tomolo...becoz i feel like no one's interested...hiya...life so unfair...when u do something with all your heart no one even says great job...nobody...they just see you as a show off...shucks...feel like changin the tone of my speech and just say...thnx for the support guyz...thnx a lot...anyway still hv to rewrite this darn thing...anyway i dunnoe...someone said that tomolo will be ok...but i dun think so...i m just scared and frightened...hiya...
.::Thursday, October 16, 2003
What define us all...what makes us all...haha...its kinda funny that now i am facin my greatest task and realisin that there is more to life...
Well i think today is just a drag...very disturbed over a decision of will be doin in the future...shucks...i dunnoe...well guess it aint time to talk abt this gotta whole lot of revisin to do...anyway mommy comin tomolo(yeah!)...she's like flyin now to taiwan then to here and there...hope she is fine and lola to...well i leave it in God's hands to take care of them...well me family is back...and yeah!!!!
i am a late nite blogger....i am bloggin now coz its the only...and i mean "only" time i get to recollect what i have done throughout the day....sigh...yupz....i still feel somethin botherin me but i dunnoe wat...darn sometimes choices r hard to make...sometimes ....shucks why am i talkin abt this...hiya...this sucks...anyway today i feel tired after a long meetin...discuss discuss discuss...well it was a tirin session yet productive...now i gotta plan how to fit in time for this and time for studies...well ppl think i shudnt side track...but why not...there r ppl out there who hv alll the time in the world to study and study freakin hard and they still flunk...and i wonder why??and yet by me sayin this ppl tend to get upset...r u guyz jealous of me??? or u think i m boastin...cmon what did God give me that you don't hv...sometimes i too dun understand why i get this kinda grades...well its not for me to qn....anyway...gotta do some work now...till nxt...anyway...i just fell tired thats all...
.::Tuesday, October 14, 2003
STAND UP: You are a natural stand-up comedian. You
watch the news with people, and when you give
your opinions, people start laughing. They are
not laughing at you, they are laughing because
what you say is so TRUE. The world is a very
funny place, full of natural comedy. All you do
is repeat various humorous things that you
notice from everyday life. Your unique
perspective on the world is what makes you so
funny. Of all the various comedy types, you may
be the funniest of them all!
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How funny are you?
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"oh i am what i am...i'll do what i want but i cant hide..."
just wonderin...how in the world i was able to find time to do all this...darn...its so darn weird...anyway...good no sch tomolo...hehehe...can rest and pace myself for me self revision...hehe...so till nxt...but i wonder wat will i do now....sleep or mug...oh wells cant decide...
.::Monday, October 13, 2003
....i am so groggy today...slept at 4am and woke up at 5.30am and had to go to sch...spent my wee hrs doin me speech...darn so tirin...my mind is like exhausted nd just typin this is so tirin...okok...i cant say anymore or else a vein might just pop...ok till nxt...gotta do some tys stuff...yeah!!!
.::Sunday, October 12, 2003
okok...i m still kinda full frm lunch(burp!) anyway...been doin me tys lately and still feel fine...hehehe...well its not rite to feel dat way...anyway...another 2wks and its the beginning of everything that i hv studied for...and yet a gain after the tides have fallen i question myself...is it all worth it...huh...well reserving the qns for later...anyway my bro aint comin today...he didnt get a ticket...dat guy...i am gonna punch him real hard...hahah...anyway dats all i guess...till nxt...
.::Saturday, October 11, 2003
hi peeps...okok...here is the low down of the day...i slept late last night and i had to get up early...(doesnt that happen to all of us???) anyway today i was like out of the hse until like 8pm...well basically it was a long day...wat i did was like hmmm...nvm...anyway been studyin and doin tys and still i m f.i.n.e.
F- Freaked out
I- Insecure
N- Neurotic
E- Emotional
hmm i dunnoe why...guess thats me..fine...finished...well tomolo my elder bro is comin..gonna give hi a punch if he arrives drunk...anyway i owe him one punch...hahaha..anyway my fam wont be complete till me mom comes back frm the states (i miss ya lots ma!)...shes enjoyin her time there...and as for me...better not rest on me laurels coz the o's r comin! the o's r comin! well i think i typed too much for now gtg like they call it mug...(i wonder why heehehe)...
.::Friday, October 10, 2003
okok...didnt blog yesterday becoz i was like so darn in to studyin...(as if) ok i wanted to blog but i couldnt...sigh...so here is the update...just realised dat its abt 3 wks to hell...5 wks to freedom...haha...just cant wait..btw...couldnt get nline just now becoz i think someone fiddled with the configurations of the modem so i had to do it myself and reconfigure the network...relief...wonder wat happend...anyway i will be back soon....i guess..and gotta remind myself not to slack anymore...
.::Wednesday, October 08, 2003
check out my room...kinda in a mess huh???well was kinda playin around with the cam ms sheila loaned to me and just snapped my room...hahah...looks plain rite...well thats just me plain...anyway be uploadin other pics...hahaha...ya as if...well just maybe
darn i slept...should have not...how many times must i convince myself about this...shucks...anyway its kinda weird that i m cheerful today...is it great at all...but somehow yet i am happy something still inside me just wants to cry now...i dunnoe...but i m just holdin it back coz there is no reason to...well gotta go work..hahah...work the kitchen i guess...get me ginsu and slice up some stuff and chuck it all in the wok...hahaha..anyway till nxt time...
You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
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compassion.
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.::Tuesday, October 07, 2003
might think i have nothing better to do this whole day huh? well i guess its true...i hv been kinda worried the whole day over something...i guess even though it is resolved somehow another thing will crop up again...
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You excel at Defense Against the Dark Arts. Which
is really good because who knows when you'll
run into that disgruntle troll or banshee going
through menopause.
Which Class at Hogwarts Would You Excel at?
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You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.
What feeling do you represent?
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i am myself but i am not myself...i m hurt but i am not hurt...i despise yet i feel despised...i dont feel but i feel...all this thoughts run around in my mind disturbing me...but why i asked...is it because of something i said...something i did...well maybe...well ladies and gentlemen...i have decided and i decide to...well that's up to you to intepret...well basically speakin...i m just wondering again and wandering to places i dun really want to go...but i said it again...now the world is worried...well i guess not...well just maybe..just maybe..
.::Monday, October 06, 2003
You are Gambit!
You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have.
Your preference for solitude and your
attractiveness make you very intriguing to
those you meet. Unfortunately, close
relationships are few and far between for you
because you often have trouble opening up to
others.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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today i don't feel like talking to anyone online...well wonder why...well fat hope you will ever know...feel insulted??? yah you should because i want you to...hah!...screwed up people no lifers...and yes if you want to speak to me dont even think of it coz you will just make things worse...or even if calling works..hahah....fat hope...like i said i dont wanna speak to anyone...well you see the reason is because.......well think....just got one thing to say and you can ponder it the whole night and maybe if in the morning i am in a good mood maybe you could tell me...probably by then i would have forgotten...anyway you ppl who think by studying hard can solve your prob and get what you want...then all i can say is happy studyin coz if your life revolves around papers then thats your prob and maybe thats why you aint gettin what you want...well as for me life revolves around ppl and if you dont believe me then why am i insulting you ppl to wake up...well maybe the ppl who revolve around me just dont get it...anyway...screw u guyz who think studyin is the ans!!!!
.::Sunday, October 05, 2003
....its just like any other sunday....again...another week closer...time is ticking...everyone is brewing their soup of success...and what am i doin...typin in this silly blog of mine whereby its so full of crap...hah...but i just wonder...is it worth it...to pursue your dreams and chuck away everyone you have known....is it...well my life revolves around people...not papers...and if its papers then i desrve not a life....well took tests today and this is it...hiya...hv fun then...
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hey...hey...just had a long day today....shucks...wat turned out to be a study stay with ramzi ended up a time of r and r....and i kinda feel sorry for thrashin him at Hotels...got him bankrupt because i had all th 5 star hotels...hiya...sorry dude...i feel for ya...i mean he cried...i know he aint a sissy but his feelins are so i dunnoe...but i respect him and hes my best friend...well i gotta thank him lots today...passed me his a-math bk...well gotta go sleep now....b4 i cant wake for tomolo's church service...
.::Friday, October 03, 2003
darn...i m strugglin just to keep myself awake now...i am so exhausted...fatigue has set in i guess...niway kinda happy that my score is a 12....and i think aj is kinda my choice hey...anyway cant rest on me laurels now hey....so i guess gotta devote my next few wks just revisin and revisin...just cant wait....
.::Thursday, October 02, 2003
shucks...my knee again...it hurts...the pain is back...well played soccer today in the hot bakin sun and all of a sudden....it aint a soccer match anymore but a match of profanities and darn egoistic ppl....it was war...it was insane...now i noe how it is to be in a man u and arsenal match when the tension is so darn high...o whatever....i just dont get it...wat enrages this ppl??? the hormones??? or wat.,.....i dunnoe...well my knee aches...my back too...and most of all my head....aaaarrrggghhh....
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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.::Wednesday, October 01, 2003
...darn...suddenly i m so down...becoz been durfin the jc websites...and i realise...its like soooo diff to get something i want with my kinda aggregate...aarrgh...3 months course is kinda useless if i go with this kinda marks...sigh...i dunnoe...thinkin of aj....or maybe sajc...or if i really work it....vj??...well i gotta work it for the next few wks...then its liberation...but it is certainly not the end if i fail to catch this elusive dreams...darn...need a bit of spicin up now...but how...anyway...children's day ws a success...okok..lin's b'day....was happy dat she is happy....hehehe....so ciao then....
change of theme for this month....its all abt time now...coz its only weeks away from my reckoning...and i just cant wait...anyway...its just a dream that is just so elusive that i have to catch again....
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