.::Sunday, September 28, 2003 there is just so much to say...but the words just won't come out the way i want them to...it's all in there inside my head...but it's all congested that none will come out...what is it that prevents me from saying what i feel like saying....am i afraid that my words will insult or destroy my friendship...what is it....what is this internal struggle that prevents me from sharing something so dear to me....am i ashamed of it...ashamed for i have not lived up to it....i m in this world but am not of it...so to you the reader....what is it that you feel when you read this words of mine....you think that it is just some trash thought up by some teenager who is just disgruntled and unhappy about life not being fair...well if you think that way i m sorry for you then coz this blog is not just a way to tell my stories...its a personal reflection of who i am...my personality...character..virtue...and most importantly what i stand up for and live for....
i am disgruntled...i am unhappy...but for a reason...a reson maybe if i say it...you alone will not agree...happiness in this world is all just an illusion to temporarily satisfy your longings....it just saddens me even more...that something so dear and lovely to me is lost in this world....but i guess you too won't agree...
"Vanity of vanities," says the preacher;
"Vanity of vanities, all is vanity."
What profit has a man from all his labour
In which he toils under the sun?
As he came from his mother's womb, naked shall he return,
To go as he came;
And he shall take nothing from his labour
Which he may carry away from his hand.
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