.::Monday, January 05, 2004
accordin to the rite date its been like 4 dayz since i last blogged...i dun really feel bad abt it coz i m very tired...ya...too tired...just that my whole thought process and everythin is on somethin and bloggin is not a priority hehehe...yeah...niways AJ is my new sch and i feel kinda awkward bein there...i dunnoe is it the orientation prog??? or wat...its just...haiz..i dunnoe...anywayz i think there shd be other forms of orientatin J1s as they call us rather than the usual cheer, dance, and those kinda stuff...i aint sayin i dun enjoy it but 4 straight dayz of this i dun think showcases how life in AJ is all abt...i mean seriously look at it at another perspective...i noe orientation is neccessary but its just feels like as if in my whole 2 yr stay there it will be just like this...i mean the ogl's to a certain extent kinda hv the wrong focus...u noe they just want us to be the best grp etc and stuff...and they hv this expectation that we shd be enjoyin this kinda stuff....not to forget the long hrs of non-stop this kind of activities...so at the end of the day it just gives me a headache...well if i carry on like this u see that i might end up in the students council and i was kinda surprised that i am not the only one who feels like this...its not the grp bondin or the prog...its the approach of the orientation...i appreciate their hardwork but its like somethin is missin...that factor...like i dunnoe...well some say take a few more dayz and everythin will be fine...haiz...yeah...i hope so...i mean if i m just gonna be poofed for the nxt 3 dayz then i might as well just run around the neighbourhood rite...well is it really a culture at that jc to hv all this things such as the clap...dances...etc...is it tradition???...i mean with my experience in yv i question is it really necessary for this traditional yv songs, dances???...i mean ya it is inspirin but what if there wasn't any of this would it still be inspirin???...think abt it...and when u do u realise its actually a mindset...and i noe i will coz a bit of sparks coz the mindset is already there...the perceptions etc...i mean who put this perception that cheerin, dances and stuff like that is really required in an orientation???...think...well come to think of it myself i too dunnoe...i mean if i were to do an orientation that will benefit the sch as well as the students....i would just hv it run for 2 dayz and cut down on games etc...and focus on more of how jc is really run...like give them a mock time table and let them sit through everythin...and that means they are already divided into their classes etc....i noe its quite far'fetched but its a try to get out of this coz i found out not many ppl like this sort of stuff...haiz...ya...its just crazy...i think i will be crazy and with all this ideas i may just be nominated to council for bein radical and there goes my free time...i mean think...and i guess by me thinkin all the time i dun enjoy orientation coz i always hv somethin to say and to justify abt somethin they do...and where did i learn to be like this...experience and i guess its also my mindset not to hv a set mindset and to always be open to possibilities...but am i really that open???....or do i just want to be different...i dunnoe...but i'll just wait and see...and when they do hv those evaluation forms get ready spare paper coz i hv a lot to say....i think...hahhaha...yeah...guess thats worth 4 dayz of bloggin....
anywayz...away frm sch and here is my current dream...i am preparin myself for an audition for the SRT Young CO. this comin sunday and i hv to prepare like 2 monologues 2 songs and must be really just psyched up...anywayz...just wanted to tell you guyz abt this and i m just prayin for strength and guidance...and whether i get in or not its up to God above and i m just gonna give my all for this....yeah...well to all me frenz out there love ya guyz and miss ya guyz too...well thats life i guess...
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