.::Tuesday, January 27, 2004 you noe wat...suddenly i dunnoe...ever since school started rite....its just like normal my brain gets into this deep thinkin process that some ppl find queer...some ppl find amusin while others dun seem to bother...i mean i just realised how complicated i am that no one appears to noe me...as in noe me deeply...i mean wat i am gettin at is that no one understands me and at times i too dun understand myself...as in my class that is...well a desciption of my class is that everyone is so stucked up with their own things...and i just realised how self-centered ppl are at times...and i m guilty of that too...i just realised that i cant be standin alone all the time in jc...i mean its not that i dun like my classmates or watever...its just that i dun really feel the connection...its as if i am some kind of anamoly...somethin not meant to be but happens to be there...i feel that way at times...and i also feel like an arts student at heart but with a scientific mind...cmon who in the right mind esp guys would say if they had a chance would take literature as a subject...+raise hand+...i would u noe...and ppl find that funny comin frm a science student....and i dunnoe what kind of perception ppl hv that bein in science u r so square that a simple poem is borin to them...even a simple word...that means a lot...is brushed aside...well all i can say to my classmates is that...u guyz may be smart...but i guess i hv the best of both worlds here...coz where you guyz fail i score...and that is feelins...well i dun wanna boast...but seriously if u noe me well enough u would just see how much struggle i hv everyday to say the right things...or to even just control my emotions...i guess bks is one thing...but i guess inner peace with a person more knowledgable than me is better...and that is somethin i wish to attain now to rest my soul...to make it serene once more...coz i know i have strayed away again frm the path i shd take...welll guess i said more than i shd...ya...well thats it...
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