.::Wednesday, February 11, 2004 guess its been too long since i wrote in this blog...really tied down at home...and ppl think i am like some guy who aint serious bout studies and stuff...well i think dats the kind of impression i give to some...but anyways...i am lar...but i m not superman...i cant be all the way so powerful and do everythin...but i guess i m just human and cant do everythin at one go...but i guess to some this may be excuses...to others just lies...but to some who care and are concerned....just worries...but anyways...i m writtin this b4 i try and do my tutorial...sighs...i reall hope ppl understand how i m rite now...like i go home to my bros and make sure they are fine...then if i come home late i check on them...then i tell ppl that i do the laundry and u guys better be happy that ur maid or ur mom does em for u...coz u think its easy just by dumpin them into the machine and press wash??? it aint u noe...u gotta soak....and scrub some stuff...unless they invent a washin machine that scrubs then i can say its easy...anyway been really tired to the extent that i dun even wanna slp on my bed which is like on top and i am so tired to go up there..so i end up sleepin on the floor with my sleepin bag...well dats how it is...the fridge is fine...but its demoralisin to see the other fridge...so packed...cant bother to look in to it...sighs...well feel like i had a never endin wk...and i guess this wkend will be fine...and i guess i hv to find more time with myself and God...coz i think this pass few days i hv been pushin Him out of my life...and i pray He leads me back and grants me strength to endure another minute, hour, day, wk, month, yr....and i hope ppl out there understand wat i m goin through...coz i dun wanna be envious or wat...but to tell ya guyz that havin the house to ur own aint fun....its lonely at times...messy always...but i guess it does help me realise how blessed we are that we still hv our parents with us...and do not take them for granted coz u will realise like me that without them it would be diff and i know wat my mom feels at times...well guess i have said more than i shd...and i guess i shd go now...
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