.::Wednesday, March 31, 2004 "Explicit rebuke frm the conscience within" how long will you get up frm your sorry state and start movin...you always talk abt doin things but yet you dont do them...when will you ever start...you cant carry on like this...lettin just one day destroy your wk...or just one whole day destroy your whole life...cmon start movin...WAKE UP!!!!....you are not like this justin....you always rise up when need be...but wats wrong now...you wont even tell yourself neither anyone...its not rite to be like this...not rite to shut the door in the face of your close frenz....dont you noe the longer you are like this the more you will never get out of this pit...you were fine then...why now you end up like this pathetic person...its not rite just....you can never be like this...remember the time i wrote to you when you were stonin b4 your o's...remember how you brought yourself up....u can do it...its all in you...but i guess now you just cant find it....and i guess it is closer than you thought it is...though its in you remember that someone is always there for you...cmon smile dude....u cant carry on this way it will just produce bad chemicals...serious...anyway its your choice...but pls dun take too long...for you noe deep inside you are wastin too much time...you need rest at first...than you need to focus on the rite things....so dude...i hope this will be the last time i write to you...coz i noe you more than you noe yourself...you just hv to pick yourself up by reachin out for the hand that wants to pick you up...the hand that is always willin...the hand that always is there....and one more thing just...you speak abt a fire...a fire just cant appear by just sittin down there...strike the match first...then the fire will begin to burn if you cant do it...let someone else light that light...and may your fire burn bright...and drive out this grim feelin...cheer up...seriously...once you do...you will know wat i mean....
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