.::Saturday, April 03, 2004 well...i guess its only polite to reply to my inner side of me...haha...well...i guess i m always at war within myself...always at war with the head and the heart...and there has to be someone who will always come in and its the neutral party...my conscience...who is always there to remind me of this and that...and i thnk that part of me...anyway...i guess after wat he wrote i feel much better now more alive...well...i guess i miss my dad...really...and i miss my frens...my best frens frm sec sch...but aj ppl are grt...and i m excited in wearin the uniform nxt wk...haha...anyway...i guess i shd thnk those ppl who do leave encouragin tags for me coz at least i noe i aint alone in this world...well ya...i guess when i m fine i dun hv much to write..but when i m down tired and sick...i do...weird huh...haha...anyway today was grt...went swimmin with gary,george and kl...brought me bro joel along...i dunnoe wats goin on with jared...but i just hope he doesnt stray too far frm me...ok...anyway the point is that we had fun...thats one...anyway though it was little...we sure did hv grt fun feelin like giants in a 1m deep pool coz the olympic size pool was like packed with kids who swam better than me...and they like noe more kinds of strokes than me...and they swim like back and forth and i was like woh...and they like swim back and forth...and i like did only like 3 laps...but most of the time stop n go one...coz got congestion...haha...anyway...then we had dinner at bk just now...then kt joined us...he shared somethin that i do understand and sometimes undergo....then i kinda had a talk with joel...been awhile since i had some talk like dat and it was a grt talk durin dinner....anyway this is a summary...gonna go in detail like now...
ok...where shd i start well shant talk bout sch...except taht drama rox!!!!...though i feel sometimes that we havent reached the extent that we can be super really close and all....and smell each others sweat and all...i guess we are reachin there...well...i m glad we r on the role...another grt experience...
well now the thing abt jared...well you see...i m just worried how he is...i mean he has been very distant frm me...and i guess distant frm many of us...coz he doesnt seem interested in his spiritual life...i dunnoe...but after speakin with K.L, K.T durin dinner...its just sad abt wat they r sayin abt him...and i m worried abt it...i mean it shows lar...he aint that interested in church activities or participation...tell him to go yf...he says he is goin out...well...i m just worried and i guess u dunnoe wat kind of a relationship me and jared are....just dat...i guess we r not the bestest of bestest of bros...coz if i like tell him that somethin is wrong in his life he will take it as an insult...and we will like get into this big fight...we were always the cat and dog of the family...well i just hope that he just opens up to me...well...i hope God does work in him...
well abt kt's case...well first time i saw him really look really down...well i noe i cant do anythin much...but i guess everyone goes down sometimes and i can feel and understand his angst...and i guess sometimes when u r really down u just go to the extreme well big bro...i hope u do feel better and i hope u dun feel too down abt watever bugs u...well just hang in there....
well okok abt joel...well had a talk with him on the way home and made a deal with him...and i hope he does uphold those deals...and ya i guess i m just worried bout him and his sch work ya....and i was like askin how is his life and all...well...i told him if he got anythin...just tell em to me...ya..
well dats abt it then...i guess i hv tried to emcompass everythin...haha...oh ya one more thing i just wanna say...i dun mind anyone seein my blog be it my dad, mom, aunty, uncle, church frens, teachers, and all comin and readin wat i write here...but i just wanna make this clear...a blog can be for fun...can be a place to cast my cares....a place to express myself in a way i can never do...it is also a place where one might find serenity in...and if ever...u hv a query...or somethin i say offends you or disturbs you...pls come to me and talk to me...coz in watever i put in this blog...i do it for a reason...sometimes with no real intention....but just to remind you...words may be interpreted in diff ways...and the only way is to get the ans frm the person himself...but i guess its not applicable to qn God...coz the truth has been revealed...
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