.::Sunday, June 27, 2004 I may not be the perfect son
Not even wat you thought i would be
For after all that
I m just unhappy to be in this family
The chance I wished to take
Was taken by who else but you
You robbed me of everythin
And now I lie here wonderin wat to do
Even though hope glimmers
I wish not to take it
For I m still unhappy
With the way it has all become
The path I chose to take
Just burns the desire I had
For now it rots
Like a bark eaten by termites
I have lost my all
Lost it all
And yet this anger I have
I cant put out
I dont know if i can forgive you
If it takes this downward spiral
For you to see who I really am
Then I will take it
If it means losin everything
Even my life
I would
I could
But even if i did
What would that mean to you
Another lost soul to the world unknown
where i will be consumed
You shouldnt have done that
For why should I fight now for a cause
That I know I will lose
No hardwork can repair what cause I have lost
I dont know if you will ever know
For now I have closed the door
And shut it tight from you
So whether you will get through
I believe I m done with you
For i have never been like this before
Till you slammed your fist on my door
I will never be able to get myself back
For I dont want to anymore...
To be your son
You have placed hopes
But now its gone
For I have been provoked
And I dont know what else I can do
But sulk in this world I have been locked in...
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