.::Friday, July 30, 2004 ever thought you could reflect on a reflection???...well i guess dats wat i m doin now...reflecting not thinking...there is a diff to those 2 aspects...firstly...thinking is generating your mind...like generating electricity...get the picture...now reflecting...is thinkin(diff type that is) of what you or in this instance i hv thought of...now when i mean reflect on a reflection...its more of like relfecting over something i hv reflected...well in this instance my past 2 entries...they are so passionate that when writtin em i lose myself...totally...well why do i reflect...becoz i wanna be calm again...take this time to calm my emotions...shant explain why i hv to though...just take it that i need to...ya...anyway...as i read my previous entries over the past 2 days...i believe there is some significant impact to it...that i m angry over something or someone...and the scatteredness of yesterdays entry just shows how my thoughts become when i just implode...yes i would say implode there...haha...becoz instead of lettin them out b4 they just caved in within...well...now its just clearing the debris...anyway...i shant say i m a poet becoz anyone can write rhymes and beautiful words...and link em up and make somethin wonderful...but the only reason i write poems or pen down words which end up like poems...is becoz i wanna send say something only expressed through those ways...i dunnoe if u do understand the previous thoughts(this is wat i would call em...becoz they are anyway just thoughts...and they only become poetry if one understands the meaning behind them...)...anyway not a student of literature...but there has to be a reason for everything as i was taught...every thing you do..you say...every thought...there has to be a purpose a motivation...and i guess the only motivation i wrote those 2...was because of my impulse rather than real reasoning...it was plain unhappiness and anger that made me express all those...now the more i think abt those words...i just wonder how it would hv affected those whom i aimed those thoughts to...well...anyway enough said...the past is the past...i just wanna write now...just to kp my mind...and calm it once again...but let me just say that watever i said in those 2 thoughts...was that...i really meant them...though i may sound contradictory...but really...i mean those words...like the words i m goin to say...
Maybe the rush was just to fast To adjust to all those fuss If only we had known The weaknesses that shone...
For I was wreckless as always Forcing it down to an unready mind It was my wrong and it was my fault Now it has drained our souls
It is different And it is true Its difficult But what to do...
We are lost yet we have found A way to get to common ground Some time alone for ourselves Healing our minds, our hearts, our souls
Looking forward to times ahead I will not worry myself Nor be unreasonable again Despite what happens... A memory is what remains To remind me of that journey How wonderful it was Only to become what it has Should it continue I don't know Eventually time is the factor
To all of this... Enjoy the time spent alone And regaining the will our own Relax...for that's what we need Some peace and quiet again...
I hope your doing fine out there...
what ya think of that...ahaha....kinda...hmmm...it felt gd writtin it...just felt like writtin them...anyway...guess i hv nothin more to say...though the time states 8.53 pm... i finished this ard 11pm..ya...anyway...hope it makes sense...
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