.::Tuesday, July 06, 2004 Reality check:
for this six months have seen my life take a dip...i can say that u noe coz my life is not showin wat it shd...the portrayal of my life is just like any other in the world...i hv not exercised my responsibility nor shown a gd testimony of what i shd be. i hv not been as open to my parents as i shd hv been thats why the cracks durin the past few wks...
Resolution:
I hv to redeem myself. Become who i used to be. BUt i noe my strength alone is never enough to pull me through therefore i must noe who i shd put my trust and faith upon when times of strife appear. Homework, revision must be done but on top of that my quiet time must be there too for i believe i hv driftin frm the Word. I shd speak my mind like i shd to my parents for i noe i cant kp everythin inside and i noe by keepin things inside ppl close to me will noe there is somethin wrong and i believe i shd share more things with my parents.
Vindication:
It is true my life is one like a prodigal, wild and i hv lost control of it and it shows for our lives are like our rooms mine is really messed up...for it shows in my room...and it is true a lot of effort will be needed to clean it up...and it is up to me to take it on...and i noe it means sacrificin things...
Prayer For the remainder of the year:
Guidance, strength and a life pleasing to the Lord...
I know my life has never been a smile to You,
I know my life has made you angrier than ever,
I know my life is meant to be more than this,
I know what is wrong yet I cant do it rite.
I need your guidance
I need your strength
I need your wisdom
Though I know i m worthy of none
Forgive me for my trespasses
Forgive me for my unbelief
Forgive me for I m not what you want me to be
Forgive me dear Lord for that is wat i want
To not be what i hv become
To not do what i hv been doin
To turn ard and come back to you
To be in your embrace once again
For I want thy blessing
For I need you everyday
For without you my life
Is nothing more than vapour in Your eyes
And i see with you in my life
There is a reason to be alive
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