.::Sunday, August 15, 2004 I dread sometimes coming here to write...dunnoe why...becoz past few days i guess i just dunnoe wat to say...i m back to my thoughts of constipation...sighs...recently i feel dat i hv been sighin alot...anyway...love the warmth the yf has...guess i hv always been a mystery to some...abt time i be open...well slowly lar...anyway...just realised dat why would i spend a gd 2-3hrs if must of my time typin out stuff here...why am i so focused on this place i noe to some may be a waste of time...why??...hahah...i dunnoe why...its just dat i feel somehow its like a channel...anyway...the drama club in aj is kinda disappointing...and it makes me feel sad sometimes that maturity is really the qn...are we youth so blatantly blinded by our own personal gains that we think of ourselves more b4 others...if i hadnt learnt this simple virtue of interpersonal relationships...i guess i would hv been one person whom everyone would avoid...now the thing is dat...as much as i m tryin to understand my own plights in life...it also burdens me sometimes seeing the plain ignorance of youths this days...take it for my jc...if its only me who feels dat we despite me keepin my mouth shut deserved that shake in our heads...sighs...saturday one of those days to note down...tragic i shall say...and i guess i wont do well for that test...didnt touch the vocab...took to long to think it out...well...gotta practice my skills of unpacking texts...sighs...well the good thing abt everything is dat i ended everyday since sat with the rite ppl...haha...really...haha...but still i just pray that i will be given the strength to endure another long wk...and i just hope that i will be able to do wat i want to do...haiz...well always lookin forward...anyway...i guess i said enough...just wanna end with a quote i made up and put on my nick once....(i noe its kinda lame but wat to do...cant stop it...sighs...)
"sigh night...sigh bright...why do i sigh so much tonigh..."
well i guess to lin....its not dat i wanna ignore you...its just dat its not like those times anymore...its different now...i cant talk to you like i used too...i hope you understand...i miss those times...yes i do...but u hv moved on...i m tryin too...but its difficult to talk to you despite you and me still being frens...haiz...i m sorry...
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