i would hv to admit that rite now am strugglin in a dilema over matters that concern my heart...i dunnoe how to really say but...i mean...i cant kp on being like this and hold everything back somehow...i gotta decide...but not now...then i wonder when?...my being is affected no doubt abt dat...but the effects are not as drastic...its just dat words are so hard to form nowadays and it feels like the first time....but when one says they love you i get scared becoz we humans are limited in our ability to love...and ya...the thing is how am i to say wat i really want to say...i neither wanna lose nor gain anythin...but i noe i cant hv best of both worlds anyway...sighs...but why not?...i m thinkin...still am...but how long can you kp one in the dark that it makes them feel so lonely...how could i do such a thing?...when it comes to matters of the heart it is really sticky...but i dunnoe...dun really noe...i hear both sides..but rather stay in the middle...but how long can i do that coz in the end it would still end up one sided....sighs...the world can only love this much...but the love i hv found loves everything around...its not a matter of accept or wat...its much more than dat...its an understanding...and i suppose being the person i m...i just cant...cant...cant...l...
"i m treading in a spiders web...or am i just in the middle of nowhere...."
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