"Sometimes I sit staring out the window, watchin this world pass me by...." Eminem "Halie's Song"
Everytime i walk home from the mrt this song always plays in my mind...i dunnoe why but it seems like a song of lament or becoz somethin is bothering me...well apparently now its not becoz i hv already let it out in post that wasnt posted becoz of server time out...hehe...anyway i shall just continue than...well this wk i hv been wat shall i say stressed out?well i suppose pass few days i hv been rather uptight, constipated, snapping, everythin associated to mood swings...sounds as if i m pregnant...anyway actually after writtin that post that wasnt suppose to be not becoz its my fault its becoz its lost lar...maybe meant to be lost that now i dun really feel burdened no more except that rather than worried of many things i m more excited of the many things...cmon look at it at one direction...i got a camp to plan and boy its gonna be fun...a retreat to do dats gonna be great too coz not only will we spend time of fellowship it would be fun too...than sch is over...hooray!!!....haha...wat more can i say...I suppose i hv shown a lack of faith this yr...and ya it seems as though i can help others but not myself...i can be depended on bla bla bla...but most times i fail ppl..and ya ppl will fail....cant really depend on em truly...coz i aint insultin you guys yanoe...as in frens...its just dat cmon even your bestess of fren will betray ya...and the matter of fact is dat I noe there is one who will give satisfaction...God offers taht and i am seekin it coz i noe with the world as it is boggin us down with worldly matters...we often or shd i say i often forget to kp check on an impt aspect of life itself...that God is in control...i mean precisely why shd i worry....
"...coz sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders. Everyone's leaning on me..." Eminem "Halie's Song"
dats how i felt on monday...coz i totally screwed...u noe when u get involved in an intricated web...and one falter and ur so stucked up...i mean i went all out to help but like i said...ppl bein ppl will always fail...i faltered...i feel bad...but i noe it will be resolved....and the feelin i hv is beyond words and i dun wanna say anythin becoz frenship is something that cant be compromised...its surprising how circumstances could affect me...i let it happen...i was sick...i let it affect my mood...i was tired with PW....i let it affect my energy...in the end...its beyond explainin...although i may be burdened not sayin i dun want it...its just dat sometimes its just me to kp things up till it takes one spark to start em flowin...and the process of lettin out those feelins...is just like when you hv constipation...yep imagine the pain huh? well dats me...i havent learnt so u cant force oneself to do it...and i noe i m a stubborn person when i m down...and if u dunnoe the approach the worse is i wont talk to you at all...sometimes i feel its my fault lar...i let it get into me...and now its just cold lar...though i dun like it...but it has to be resolved...or it would just sour everythin...as the malay sayin goes ar..."nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga"...wat it means is that one wrong move spoils everything...dats life...relationships...we cant think we r alone in this earth...frenship can never be compromised...anyway i guess i gotta stop bein negative...ya loosen up dun stress out...coz cmon if i say God will find a way when there seems to be no way...wat more can i ask right? All i hv to do is to hv faith and focus everyday...dats where i lack this yr...focus...well i suppose now i feel better...apparently this is round 2...coz round one like i said was lost coz of the server connection...ya...and now like i said...i m more excited than ever...and my worry is not being unable to do the things i am suppose to do...its more of worried whether i can contain the excitement...haha...yep...anyway will be takin a vote...coz i m wondering if i shd stick with this layout...blog layout for this mth...do respond ya coz u r the readers and am givin ya guys some empowerment ya...so drop a tag or use the comments to give ya votes ya...*relief...its like the bottle is now empty...gotta learn to pour it out more often...yep will be smilin again ya....haha...
"And suddenly it seems like my shoulder blades have just shifted. It's like the greatest gift you could get. The weigh has been lifted..." Eminem "Halie's Song
Ps: I noe eminem is a foul language rapper who raps abt a lot of unacceptable things...but the thing is dat he is rappin for something he believes in...how abt us? are we doin something for wat we stand for? why do we waste our time condemin him dat he is wrong and dat he is a violent man? I would rather admire him for his courage to rise up to the occasion and speak his mind...why not us? Think abt it? R we rising up to the occasion for our beliefs? Fyi...this is one of his "feelins" songs...and if u here u could tell how serious he meant those words...how much more we christians....we know the truth...think abt it....
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